I own and belong to nothing in this world. I can't find my track back to the so called "normality" and to tell the truth I'm not even looking forward to it anymore it has been a while. I'm done with it. There's no such thing as feeling normal again.

I'm so so so so so lost deep inside, so hidden somewhere in the darkness of my soul that to me heaven means going far away from here and feeling nothing nevermore. All I am asking for is to feel nothing ever again... Something beyond peace. Literally nothing. I just want to disappear, evaporate, break into a zillion pieces and have it all thrown in every corner of this fucking universe.

I look at the people around me and to the scenery where I'm put into and it feels so fake, a complete joke.